moving on...

heres the link to my new blog...im moving...u heard me ....;)

http://bewitchedlass.blogspot.com/

unsaid words...

its so true...that sometimes silence speaks more than words do....I never used to understand how...but i have begun to realise all these different things now... equally true is this...sometimes unsaid things can seem harsher than the harshest words spat out by someone....

after all people learn from experiences...such is what life...that over the years when one grows old...one picks up thorns and petals along the way and thus get moulded...our life is always teaching or telling us things...but we do not begin to hear it till we have almost lived a third of our life...an average human being lives upto the age of mid 70...so I would say we are almost in our early 20's before we start realising things...

One can't be blamed for this though...I mean who would bother to think about serious things like future career and what life holds for us..and the likes of where would he/she end up working or marrying when there are more important things like making fun of the loosers around...and mimicing teachers and buking class..and whispering in groups about one's latest crush...this is what took up most of our time in high school...

indian parents as everyone knows...nevertheless try and talk sense into kids...so did my parents....."don't waste time"..."have you done your homework?".."look at how neat and pretty your friend's handwriting is! why are you so messy?" and the likes of it...and trust me it used to drive me nuts..all this comaprison..and being told I am not doing well enough...I never turned out to be the nerdy type who would make sure everythign is done and worked out in time...I have been a procrastinator all my life...which is something I still try to fight...I have always crammed a week before exams..and touchwood...haven't done bad either...

anyway...I happened to talk to M a while back and our conversation was rather impersonal conversation....while it go time thinking...I am glad it was the way it was....this particular person used to be one of my best buds at a point of time....so close were we...it was like...if one was seen without the other people would ask Y...and we could read each others minds...but like always....it was short lived....turned out it was an act....it was so ackward....when i went home last year...meeting up and pretending like things were as perfect as always...when I could and im sure M could too feel what was going on at the back of my mind...I wasn't surprised to notice a while back...snaps of M and a nother person...posing....and this was the very person who was a subject of hatred even half a year back...who cares...I told myself....whats done is done..and can't do nething about it...

there was this other person R who again I used to be inseperable with sometime in high school....and now we don't talk anymore...strange aye....how you can be sooo close to a person at some time and the next moment he/she could be the last person on earth you would want to bump into....when I picture our times together...it does bring a faint smile on my face...just remembering all the mischeives we had been upto...used to be teacher's pet inspite of all...we didn't get in touch when I was in india last year...

I had spent a significant bit of time trying to be someone I wasn't deep down....constantly striving to be somebody you are not can be hard....I stopped once i realised that it doesn't really make a difference....people will come to you if they like you for who you are...irrespective of whether you are/ are not the best friend they can have...don't feel the need to please people and keep then happy so they don't leave you alone...that woudn't really count for true liking would it...coz those who like you would take you for who you are...good or bad...

anyway...rather have a few really good friends you can depend on than a million of which most would disaapear at the slightest touch of complication...Im happy now....Masks don't stay for too long....Face is the reflection of the characteristics a being-its so true!

random doodling....

I'm back yet again...a friday night....the good weekend mood kicking in...:)my day was quite good...went to work in the morning...and got bored there as usual...at least my language skills improving....one good thing!! Was dying of hunger because i had skipped breakfast not knowingly ...but I somehow just forgot to eat before I left home....!!!had a filing tandoori chicken sandwich...with loads of lettuce and capsicum and tomatoes and mushrooms in it....but paid $7.50 for it...so not worth 7.50!!!

its as cold as ever still in my world its like in the narnia series..100 years of winter kindof concept...its so friggin cold....I'm unable to handle it:(....I'm lazy to begin with and weather is doing nothing to help...rather making things worse....anyway...during one of my breaks was goin through this article in in todays SMH...
Coping with cold is child's play for some, agony for others....
WHY does winter affect people differently? Why can some people happily survive in shorts while others freeze in coats?..thats how it starts offf.....people who are obese or FAT and muscle-y people have a natural INSULATION..but what about peoplelike us :(...apparently our brain can be tricked into thinking the body is overheating if we eat spicy/hot food which triggers some temperature receptor inpulses...and the brain then thinks its actually not that cold...but i don't even eat that much hot food...:(

anyway...I have had a growing interest in puzzles...sudoku and word jumbles and crosswords since a while...not to forget my all time addiction to the dictionary game...today was one of "being impulsive" days....felt an intense desire to solve some of that...and so I left work at 5pm...went straight to a book store and bought myself sudoku book, a new york times crossword collection flipbook...and the highlight of my buy is a masterpiece by my "favi-avourite" author...crime and punishment by fyodor dostoevsky....what a great buy it is only $12...yooohoooo!!!!

while at the book store I also happened to come across the actual book...The 48 Laws of Power is a 1998 book by Robert Greene....i made a reference to one of the laws in a previous post...anyway....another of my current interests these days is playing chess...and this game of marbles..that i used to play as a kid...I had gone to the mountain last december...and happened to find it at an woodart store...the board is made of nice laquered dark wood and the set of marbles i have is green with swirling cloudy patterns inside them....

I tend to digress from what i say too often...neway...I love losing myself in book stores...its like im teleported to another world where its only me and the millions of books neatly arranged on shelves around me...and while walking around leafing through pages of random books...up and down a million aisles...happen to glide past other silent book lovers.....I always have wished...If I am rich someday..I want to have a big room in my dwelling, just as a library...the four walls would be made of expensive lacquered dark wood shelves...and will be home to all the books that I buy...and whenever I am tired and need to take some rest...I'll just slip into that room...and lose myselt in this fantasy world....and forget all my worries for a while...and be blissfully happy...

each time i enter a book store I get this overwhelming urge to buy all the books i lay my eyes on...books are so expensive these days..ever more so here than back home....its like I can never stop comparing prices and my old habbit of converting into home currency and telling myself what a RIppoFF!!!boy oH! boy!!!

I spent quiet a bit of time reading reviews about the dark knight and so far they have added to my excitement...I'm going to watch it tomorrow night...It seems like this flick will be the moivie of this year...ledgers best ever performance some say...now I have stuff to do...so we part here....ta da...

rise and shine....;)

this is a random middle of the week post....its a thursday afternoon..may i specify a sunny bright yet chilly thursday afternoon..the 17th of july....the dark knight releases today....the much awaited flick.....ledgers last film....

I have been trying to convinse people to come watch the film with me....been quiet atask....i can't believe hardly anyone wants to go...:(...anyway did manage to find few folks who agreed...so the day to watch it is this saturday...im excited...neway had i not found anyone i would probably have gone and seen it by myself....have done this earlier ....another guy just confirmed he'll come...:)

anyway.....i have been a bit tight in budget and finances..so i have been keeping a watch on what i was buying...and im also trying to eat in rather than eat out...im kindof sick of eating restaurant or junk food....and moreover i absolutely love cooking....im gonna go cook in a while...but somehow my woolworths bills always seem to be never less than $25....food items are expensive...with world food and oil inflation on the rise...and rents increasing tooo....it seems like there is no way one could ever have enough savings....bloody taxes are a killer tooo...

lodged my tax return online and i know im gonna get back a small fraction of what got deducted....its bloody hard to survive without a fulltime job:(....sick of being poor....i like it when i dont have to calculate and recalculate before spending money on a gorgeous dress....

rewinding...

boy has it been a busy few weeks...finished exams a week back and have been busy since...juggling work..studies...socialising and all that jazz...neway i'm loving every moment of it...have been watching lottt of flicks....

apart from that have to get back to research from tomorrow...im running short on money too...not a good time...but im managing somehow....
today was like neother day...i have been getting sleepless nights again...insomnias starting to happen again...and no particular reason there to blame it on....neway...been promising myself i would leave home at 7:30 every morning...but failed to get up before 8:45am every single day since exams....and hence after a lot of rushing...and shoving food down my throat i manage to reach work at 10:11am precisely every single day...

tend to fall asleeep on the train...im just really burnt out and tired all the time for no apparent reason...and yet insomnia inspite of the tiredness...evryone keeps telling me i dont get tired enough..or i wld drift off to dreamland the second i hit my pillow...looks like im gonna have to do something about this....

have been playing cat and mouse games to dodge certain people these days...did an excellent job in avoiding bumping into the last person i went out with...just saved myself some bloody ackward moments-of-no-escape...boy!!neway....a lot of people said i looked really pretty today...thts the highlight of my day...lame kindof...but im a narcissist to an extent...so ill end it there...for now....

random....**$@.....shreds...

I finish my exams tomorrow....been waiting for this impatiently...being pretty much cut off from the rest of the world....isn't all that pleasant...gets on my nerves at times....and to release tension I lose myself in the virtual world of movies...and my fantasies....

I tend to get very very uncomfortable...when I am by myself after sun set...Cannot begin to imagine this horrible feeling of sheer loneliness that begins to creep in....Although I know nothing could go wrong...I mean sucurity is good here...but something doesn't feel alright if its just me ....and it freaks me out....

Im reallly really excited about goin home in some months time...Plan to be super stingy to save up money for my plans....but my fiends are starting to complain already when I mention this...not much going out all that often....Over the past few nights I have been dreaming about my childhood nest...the garden....I used to run off to and hide from my mum..when she was trying to get me to do a sheet of maths problems...or trying to shove boring chicken stew down my oesophagus....I still hate chiken stew...

Every time mom tried to feed me something nutritious I would consider her my biggest enemy and plot ways to escape from her clutches...I used to be one Naughty kid....mommy would get complains every now and again from school...about me beating up a guy..or bullying someone...at lunchtime....and one line that never failed to appear on my report card was "she is very talkative in class"....that was something all teachers would consistently winge about....but over the years no one has been able to do anything to change it....

Those good old days...makes my eyes moist when I remember them...gone never to return...I had been wanting to go back to the house I spent the initial 12 years of my childhood in....for a long time...but have been caught up with a lot of things...and have thus been procrastinating....but I am goin to take a walk down memory lane this time when I go home.....my dreams have lately been a montage of the itsy bitsy slices of those 12 years...

It feels wierd knowing when I go home this time..not all the familiar faces I am used to seeing would be around...I hate being all grown up....and seeing that sense of security and bonding I felt would last for ever between me and my friends...gradually disappear....not that its always the case that things aren't working out for us ...but more that life takes us in different directions...and I would never have thought five years back that I would be far far away from home on one bright winter afternoon typing up this blog...and being all nostalgic...

I still remember the times when I used to play dressups with my cousins....lock ourselves in a room and pull out all the pretty sarees and dresses and try them on...and pose in front of the mirror....it was so much fun...I happened to mention this to my roommate the other day...and told her about how no one wants to play dressups with me anymore coz they thnk I'm being childish...and she came up to me last nite and said she would play with me after i finish my exams...YOOHOOO....

the things people give up to be grown up...makes me sad...

life or the so called life

sometimes it makes me wonder...what is the purpose of living the life im living...I mean living life like a nobody....is not something appealing...yeah sure when you are born you parents, other family members and neighbours perhaps rejoice at the miracle of birth yet again...a new life being among them... but that sure is short lived...over the span of "life" on the face of this earth...we also tend to make friends (some very close ones one could treasure for life) and some not that close... & acquaintances of our own....and then if you travell across the barrier of this life and into the next one..the one called afterlife....again sure a few people would miss you...but that is all...

I cannot remember when I lost my desire to strive for a few things I thought were really important to me....and I can't remember when a few people I thought would be there with me for life...left my side even before I had begun to understand the complexities of life...and it hurt a lot...suddenly finding myself alone..without the familiar faces around....but I guess this is life...and you learn to live it as it comes and move on....Moving on is probably one of the most commonly used phrases...one can come across....evryone is advising evryone to move on with life all the time...its easier said than done...

especially if you tend to be one who cries bucketfulls when watching melodramatic films and get dewy eyed at the merest mention of loved ones....Its kindof embarassing I tell you...

I am very happy today due to a variety of diferent reasons...but somewhere at the back of my mind...I feel a tad melancholy...I dreamt about things I thought I had gotten totally over and thought that I had managed to get out of my system...it seemed pretty surreal too...but was a stupid dream after all....but not everyone gets the thing they wish for....wishful thinking is fun but is limited to being a figment of our imagination.....mostly....

Oh I wish I could get so many different things....and be with some people....I would like to be with....wishful thinking...but i so so wish...for things to change...

strangeness....

Have my exams goin on now...one down two more to go...they are pretty spread out...and hence finish late..screwed up and made a stupid mistake in the first one...suddenly coudn't remember the log likelihood function of a duration model that follows exponential distribution..:( but im pleased with my johansens cointegration and vector error correction model answers...poured my heart out....

..and I got a fantastic Job offer tooo....I'm so soooooo happy...start early next year....the pays pretty good too...so its all good...

I'm also looking for ways to subtly breaking off with someone....there seems to be no spark and I'm incredibly bored tooo....man this one is gonna be pretty hard...missed a frnch film last weekend:(....but plan to go see the counterfeiters sometime soon. heard its really good..and besides its an interesting plot based on real facts...

I also learned that i get to spend more time in india now than i had thought i would be able to earlier...P is coming back this saturday....will be lonely no more!!!

trying to deal with Taylor's rule rite now...so I'll get back to that....

review...

watched yet another french film...anthony zimmer....backdrop is france obviously....watching it ...i found myself lost in another world...some effect...good flick...recent too...a 2005 release...to me it seems....thrs something magical abt the country itself...when ever i tell my friends about the french connection (oh well my obssession with france!!) everyone tells me french people are rather rude and biggest snobs among EU...and its just in films that france is portrayed as i see it...which im in love with...and reality is different from the virtual world....i know its true...but the child inside me tells me never to let go my imaginations...and live just in reality....
If I were given a choise to live anywhere on tis globe it would definitely be paris....i can't remember what triggered my obssession with france...but its been there for a decent while...and seems to be growing intense with passage of time....I have always been a dreamer....My dreams are rather bizarre too..i must say...i wake up most mornings thinking...wow that was cool...i wish it were for real...at one point of time used to be sci-fi dreams...not had much of those in recent past...neway...getiing back to what i was saying...One of my resolutions this year was to at least start attending classes to learn French...hoping itll happen....
have so much to do this year....hope they all...or at least most of them happen...times flying tooo....so hopefully NOvember will be knocking on my door sooon...enough... ;)

SlIcE it up...

xams start in less than a fortnights time...and i still have an assignment to submit...im mostly at home these days..no more classes for this semester...its just brushing up and studying...with P gone and S never at home...tend to get lonely a lot...so when ever im not studying i either listen to music...or think abt things(my usual habbit of thinking too much) or i have been watching lot of friends and movies whenever im taking a break...

just watched this french (there goes my obssession!!)film called monique...genre says romantic comedy....wierd...about this couple who break up..the wife was cheating on the husband...and she moves out of home with "the other 1" and meanwhile the guy (alex) orders this silicon life size doll with the perfect figure every guy would kill for....and being all by himself he renovates a massive part of the house and makes it all pink...drapes..to sheets...to toilet seat cover to car...and so obssessed is he...he goes and buys lingerie (really nice expensive ones two....i loved most of them!) for the doll...so hes spending days "playing"with Monique..untill his friends comes by and finds out and then word reaches his other acquaintances and wife...and she gets mad at him..jealous of a moulded doll with huge tits...!!! was a funny flick....ends well...

that was my break...its almost 1am...and im as fresh as an owl...shld hopefully be able to stay up the nite...and work on some stuff....planning on finishing a lot of stuff this weekend....I also watched Ironman last tuesday...reminded me how HOT Robert downey Jr. is....i have a thing for older men...evryone thinks its wierd...but neway....its a must watch...a fab flick....would love to watch it again....
and i saw nine months which made me realise Hugh grants a spunk too...theres so many good looking fellas...around....i wish i cld have my pick....oh well not tht im complaining with my current options...:) im happy....so that is a teeny tiny slice of my life...as of now......

a bit of this and a tad of that...

havnt blogged in eons....well just not much to write or being too preoccupied or lazy...mostly....semesters about to end....and it seems i have stopped complaining about life...started to accept it the way it is...taking things as it comes...and with practise fighting emotions is getting a lot easier tooo....well not doing a great job..but its woking somehow...

don't know where time slips through....before i knew half the year is gone almost...I wish time went faster...eagerly waiting for year end....the someone....after all seems to be interested in me ...a lot...well knowing common friends finally pays off...sweet...neway...ihave een trying to be selfish, mean, a pain in the ass for a while..and glad to say ihave suceeded in what i endeavoured to be...its a wierd pleasure that i derive being a biatch with biatches....

havent been in touch with friends for a long long time....everyones so damn busy with their own thing....hardly get time to exchange hi-s and hello-s...kinda sad....coz nothing feels as good as a healthy, hearty conversation...aka "bangalir adda" with old buddies....one of the many stress busters....miss my roomie...thr nutcase is in india these days....have the bloody exams in some time....can't wait for it to finish asap....and then move on and actually work on my research...which is far more interesting that few dumb units i have to do....

uuummmmm aaaaaaahhhhh.....crap...its late...off for now.....

lost in .............

its reallly late night...nearly 2am now.....im not sleepy.....just a million thngs going through my mind.....getting that same restless feeling.....this is the mid sem break week.....so dont have classes this week...last weekend was fun....friday was a tad bit disaappointing...coz i had to completely ignore someone.....but saturday was great ;)......i hope thrs more of them.... neway.....i have a lot on mind as usual....its been kindof wierd with a friend lately....i hope thngs change for us.....its been raining a lot these days....making things worse is the horrible cold weather:(.....oh welll.....im eager about nov...something to look forward to....I was talking to P today abt crazy stufff.....i dnt even have nething to say....ill leave it here.....

poila boisakh...

yipeee...today is the first day of the new year(well bong new year)....had i been in india..would have meant lots of new clothes...and people buzzing around the house...but sob sob...im sitting alone working on something:(....subho noboborsho to all in the blog world... ;)i have made few resolutions ( bad ones) nd im gonna try stick to em...

whats goin on??!!

i dont understand what the hell is on with people around me....some behave like asses for no reason whatsoever.....some want too much attention....nd when not given enough of it....they go psycho...nd start ignoring you....i have loads to work on at the moment....with presentations and essays lined up one after the other....not that im complaining....this keeps me busy nd mind of other not so important affairs....been feeling a little sick lately...some of it is the bloody weather and some of it these other things that are causing disturbances in my system...

so many of my so called acquaintances have been trying to hook me up with people....someone i know brings up a new guy everytime i meet her....sick of people asking me the same damn questions all the time...not like marriage is the end of all worries....in life...if it were so i wld be so willing to go ahead...but neway....rite now im a bit brain dead...after staring at my laptop for some 5 odd hours....did manage to get a significant bit of work done....

I tagged along with P to her nieces birthday party yesterday...and was overjoyed to see so many adorable little kids...the ages varied from 2 months to 10 years...i was playing with two 8 and 9 month old kids...respectively....one of the moms was all too ready nd glad for me to take the kid away from her....poor thing was so tired from changing diapers and nursing it all the time....havnt interacted with kids that young in a while...they make me so happy...love em...little bundles of JOY....

seems like my dinners done...nd my tummies making signals to fill it up...signing off...

TiMe OuT...

been really busy for quiet a while....last weekend especially....witnessed Indian Cricket team leave SCG with wide grins on their faces...that was a memorable day....i had so much fun....initially my seat was in a bay where there were mostly ozzies on al sides...so i moved to the bay that seated cheering screaming people clad in the light blue jersey....nd there was so much energy in the crowd....

ir was a bright sunny day...few clouds floating around in the depths of the blue firmament...nd i got nicely roasted tanned in the sun...(damn!!)

the previous day was mardi gras...and i had gone to the city to get a sneek peek of what its all about...there were tons and tons of gay/lesbians parading hand in hand....there was a bit of flashing of bare breasts...and fat actually obese men walking around in g-strings ( looked so ridiculous)but yeah....in the pic below...its men btw...actually transvestites....in nun outfits...

a GuD LaUgH...

the weathers turned nasty again...its been raining incessantly over the past few days...not incessantly but mostly raining...even had a hailstorm on tuesday...a violent one....yesterday was my first day at work...coz i have uni now...this was week one... :)and this is also my last week at work..quitting after tommorrow...glad that wnt have to put up with my boss perving and looking at the wrong things instead of making eye contact when we converse....

neway...i had to change my topic of research due to lack of personal data..phew..im prettty pissed because of this..but i made up my mind about a few things that i want to do...and im sticking to them...neway...my roomie P and I keep emailing each other about updates about each other and about people around us at work...all day long......its kindof fun...shes crazier than im..a nutcase...nd fun to be with.....i had to pick up my layby (red Trench COat...i look so HOT in it)...*blush* *blush*** beet root...hehe....but yeah...neway..and then she and I went to another store...and we were playing this game where we would have to talk only in hindi...not a single word of english allowed ....and i was impressed with my hindi vocabulary...better than hers...yipppeeeee!!!!but a few words where we were having hot debates were...didnt know what lingerie is called in hindi...P came up with chaddi baniyan..which i didnt agree to...and she reckons pustika...is notebook while i think pustika can be any book....guys...can you please help me out there...???

nd my psycho roomie (the other one) is gettign out of controll...im scared these days to be newhere near her...she has her screaming routines every alternate day past midnight..when P and I are both trying to catch some beauty sleep....one of these days i could murder her out of frustration....its damn frustrating when someone is so inconsiderate even after spellling it out for them..that look u might not have to wake up early and go to wrk or UNi...but we do..so since we share a place we shld look out for each other...Selfish BIATCH...

and nother interesting inference we have drawn from a certain big red Pimple on exctly the same location on both our cheeks is...that after we have had chole bature from a restaurant last week this pimple came into existense on exactly the same day and man it HURTS!!! and at exactly the same location on a different cheek though....i have to keep making different manouveres with my side fringe to hide my pimple...its pretty red...and im sure someone standing a mile away can see it clearly...DAMN...y me GOD!!!

nd to continue from where i was, people started giving us wierd looks....P has refused to go out in public with me much these days..coz yesterday ....i cracked up laughing...at the grocery store..when i saw this lanky dark LOOSER with his hair tied up in a pony tail...trying to act all smart....was quiet a site...hihi...i cdnt help but laugh on his face...neway...i promised not to repeat it again...before she agreed to talk to me...and then we got back home...and we played the ad and serial music guessing game...and i was surprised to see that i remembered all the popular ad songs by heart.....we hummed to the tunes of...
1)washing powder nirma...washing powder nirma...doodh si safedi...nirma se aaye...blah blah..( i know the rest..not in a mood to type it all up) hihi

2)vajradanti vajradanti vicco vajradanti...vicco powder vicco paste...ayurvedic jaributiyo se bana sampoorn swadesi...etc. etc..

3)jab ghar ki raunak barani ho...deewaro ko jab sajana ho...nerolac...NEROLAC...

4)vicco turmeric nahi cosmetic...vicco turmeric ayurvedic cream..keem muhaso ko jar se mitaye..twacha ki raksha kare..usme samaye...etc..

OH!!!i love indian ads..and its fun singing along with the songs..good old times...

Oh and at work today one of my colleagues...i tell you boys can be so so sadistic...we were talking about our childhood games...and this guy comes up with how he used to torture insects...e.g.;pull out the wings of flies after trapping them....watching them die coz of lack of oxygen by trapping them in between the glass sliding bits in a window....and how he used to catch spiders ( daddy long legs) and spray stuff on them..and them rip out its long limbs....that reminds me....i know someone else who used to catch bats...and toads and trap them...and when they died...he would have like proper funerals for them....and had like a little graveyard up the back of the house where their "tombstones" were marked with things..like red flags for bats....crazy as.....hihi...

after a long time..i feel happy today thinking that i am kindof following the rite track...i think i know...what i want and where im headed......im disappointed that i havnt had nemore chance encounters with my crush..after that one bumping into each other a fortnight ago....i think ill take to stalking him....if i dnt see him soon....muhaha..i know where he lives....hihi...dnt get ideas...im not a psycho stalker....just a girl-who-wants-to-bump-into-her-crush-again....lol

StArT

uni started yesterday..fels wierd being back at the same old place but not many familiar faces around....only five oop sactually 6 people doin my course..so kindof small group....stuff we wer egoing through in week 1 are sort of repetition of stuf we ve done earlier..but been out of touch for a while...and it irritates the hell out of me..when i cant recollect this stufff....blooody annoying....neway i guess itl take a bit of tiem to get used to it...i was late for class today abt 7 mins....nd my lecturer gave me that u-cant-be-bloody-late look...btw...i knw him at a personal level...family friends...i hate it so so much...most of my units are being taught by people who are family friends....neway i guess i have to deal with it....really tired and sleepy now...sigh-ning offf....

les valentin-dAy!!!

Its valentines day…a day for all loved ones to let each other know how much they r missed, loved and cared….nice thought….does indeed feel good when someone makes a sweet gesture to let you know you matter to them…it’s a bright sunny day out here….which was a moodlift for me…the past few days have been gloomy and rainy….

I came to work (first day of work this week) !!!after a busy few days off….had been to ACT to watch the match…India lost..but I had fun nonetheless… there was a V-day giveaway…thingie.. at work today and the winner was meant to get two free passes to watch the flick Sweeney Todd at the cinemas…and guess who won…ME!!!what a horrible thing….to win a valentine giveaway…and not have a valentine…Boo Hoo…neway….i have plans for the day…im happy …been wanting to watch that film for a while….love Johnny Depp…hes so HHHHOOOOOOOTTTTTTT!!!!

WaLk DoWn MeMoRy LaNe...

when ever i surf through news items...i try to browse through the Telegraph...one of the leading dailies in kolkata...and the likes of it..just to keep myself updated about kolkata...something i have recently noticed is the controversy about the famous Kolkata Boi Mela...th elast time i went there it was still at maidan...i remember queueing up with P and checking out Hot guys while in the long queue....and also keeping a sly eye out for who we were getting checked out by...and finally when we entered...we were utterly confused about which end of the mela we should start from...getting lost in the world of books is amazing..we ended up buying loads of books...and managed to get lost twice (i think)....the book fair has been reloacted since the last time i was there...i wonder what the bloody politicians get out of unnecessary controversies.....
the weekend that just went by was a gloomy one..i mean..its meant to be summer...and here we are freezing cold at times....due to the sudden heavy downpours and bloody hot at other times.....never know what to expect...most of the days im either freezing at work due to lack of proper clothings( the weather woman said it would be HOT) and at other times....all hot and puffy because i ended up wearing full slevved clothes when it was boiling hot outside....

had meant to go to uni and get some work done..but nature was against that...it kept rainign on and offf throughout the two days....P & I watched disturbia on friday night and were pretty disturbed by it...so ended up sleeping in the same room...we were talking about how different a day like this would be in india.....a rainy day would mean its an unofficial holiday for all....i would generally laze around curled up in my warm doona...and ma would generally make tele-bhaja..patla daal...alu-bhaja...and the likes of it...

it turns out both of us were quite devils as kids...always driving our folks crazy with worry or embarrasing them in public...well..not that we have stopped doing that kindof stuff..but its toned down a bit...i guess living away from home change people in more than one way...but its fun to let that naughty kid inside take over every once in a while....

This weather also reminded me of a particular brishtir din…when we all sat and watched sat ray movies…legend of a man…have been asking around for films from his collection..very hard to find…I can find hindi…punjabi and a whole lot of south indian films but not Bengali….damn…

Yet another brishtir din…this was when I was in year 11…..when it rained cats and dogs…..for those who are familiar with the water logging and temporary deluge in kolkata it wdnt be hard to conjure the image of what it would be like wading through knee deep water on the streets….after school got over a couple of us decided to walk till JU from school….it was disgusting no doubt..but if this can be ignored it was a lotof fun..that walk…no doubt my granma made me strip at the entrance (almost) before she would let me enter the house with my dirty uniform on…....

options...

lately i have been wondering a lot...have i really run out of options...and suck with things..i dont like..or do i have too many options...and am in utter confusion about which one i should choose from......i mean when i come to think of it...so many options present themselves before us....and wait to be picked....when u go to buy a simple bottle of shampoo...u have deals like buy 2 shampooes and conditioner for half price....even if u dnt wanan buy two big bottles of the same stuff..most people would buy it neway to "not let go a good offer".....when you walk into a shop to buy clothes...man..this is the most confusing part ever....they have carefully planned deals to pick your pocket clean....even i fu went all planned onnot buying more than one item...those deals will get you to reconsider and you would end up buying whatever the hell they have to offer...you walk into a fast food franchise and you are greeted by a snack deal...or whopper deal..or something similar...hard to choose which type of fat and junk would you prefer over the other...even in life i guess you do get a lot of options...just that they dont always turn out to be too good....somewhat like...would you rather be unhappy at work....or unhappy at home....would you rather pretend to like someone .....or risk being lonely.....horriblle options....but you have to take your pick.....would you rather be in a life you always pictured...and seemed so surreal....or would you rather be a looser who has no life...

today was my pick to be a complete glutton...i ate so much all day...super junk fattening food....day started off with an egg and bacon muffin..which is my absolute favourite...(i love meat)....then i gobbled down a bag of sweet chilli and sour dip sticks....yummmm...ummmmmm.....and then a mcChiken burger( havent had mackers in ages) and fries....and then to end the day (well sort off) a triple chocolate mud cate..which was awesome...the first bite made me feel like i was in heaven...ummmmmmmmmm......with strawberries....by the end of the day i felt so guilty about the junk i ate all day....i went out with P for a good 30 min run/walk/jogg and felt good about it...exercise has this wonderfull soothing effect...feels great....guess tahst all for now....but i feel happy i ate whatever i did....havent had the luxury of being this greedy in a while....damn..im hungry again...have to go forage for food....