im have been tryin to get back to my usual "happy" sad self for quiet a while.....its kindof slowly getting there i think....yesterday i felt this sudden burst of energy more like adrenaline gushing through me....and it felt kindof good......decided to do something i have been postponing for quiet a while now....oh well its kindof hard to get back into a routine study mood if ones been out of touch for weeks together.......after the brief socialising yesterday....got home early.....wandered aaround the house ( i was all alone for a fair bit of time, which is what i wanted) hehehe.....and then cleaned up my room....packed some of my clothes (i do have a lot of clothes...never realised that untill recently when i have been packing things into my luggage carrier....moving this weekend...Woo Hoooo ..im excited....)found a few "missing" articles i have been hunting for since sometime......
the weather does tend to effect my mood quiet alot...im the happiest when its a perfect summer day(even though Im hot....;)) with a clear blue sky..dont mind a handful of cumulous clouds here and there....a gentle breeze blowing.....not too humid not to dry....what really gets to me is if its neither sunny nor fully rainy.....absense of the sun kindof also sees the smile disappear from my face tooo.....hehehe..too much of positive correlation i guess......lol......managed to fall asleep as soon as i hit the pillow (for the past 4 to 5 days)which is a good sign....the distant pitter-patter of raindrops outside my casement did help me lull into the dreamworld i love visiting now and again....
neway coming back to where i started..things are fianlly kindof starting to head the way i want it to.....this weekend marks a (sortof) fresh start for me.....i have resolved to seriously do something about my social habbits...go out more often mix with fellow humans.....and try to get into a "dont care" mood....once i get thr things should be fine....coz i wld not be bothered asmuch i guess if i stop connecting with people....not a great thing entirely but will save me some unnecessary problems...and wasted emotions and energy.......
aim to reach a state of ecstacy / euphoria eventually....well the rate of accelaration at which my minds locomoting is not too impressive but it needs some fuelling and should be fine...i think.....
feels good being happy......
another reason to be happy this week is.......might be able to go watch om shanti om at the theatres.....fingers crossed.....this friday....and its diwali tooo this weekend....lot happening around aye....
to end it feels great to be HAPPY....;)
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