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im a dreamer all the way....always pursuing my heart over my head ( have to stop doing that one of these days)....in short im an endless ocean of thoughts.....

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

things to do...resolve to do...

hey hey..this beggining of the year...feeling...making resolutions....always makes me laugh...its like a thing you have to do....and feel guilty about later...when couple of mnths down the line..u reflect on the to do list...and realise...SHIT!...havnt kept up to them....but everyone tends to make em neway....im no different....well...reflecting on the past year..i know im different..i feel different about a lot of things in general.....this 2nd jan as opposed to this time last year...in certain ways....im better offf..again in certain respects im worse offf...well it balances off kindof .....life never a BED of RoSeS!!!aye....neway...i have grown to accept a lot of things....i used to winge about earlier on....

thats how it is i guess...people learn to deal and live with things...after a while....u stop caring about the shit thats happenign around....the white noise....the chaos around....seems to be deafening at first ...nd theres this feeling of drowning.....but gradually it dims out and u get so used to it...taht u would actually miss it ...if it stopped to exist...problems....wow...im surprised at my own logic...but i donno...this is how it happened with me....

stopped expecting...no more highhhhhhh hopes....better this way...at least no massacres....that way...
well well....i totally got deviated from what i started with....(thats the effect of what i read on a certain humans blog) i was surprised at how he had managed to spell out in words exactly what i feellll.....i guesss....im not the only one...thrs more like me....hehe....

Neway getting back to resolutions....welll...i have decided to bludge lesss.....work efficiently....not at home..i meant study wrk....wrap up a lot of wrk before uni resumes...KUDOS!!!!...to me..if i manage that....socialise heaps more.....it actually tends to give mod lifts even though im mostly lost in my own world of imagination....read heaps of books a have quiet a list...and watch loads of movies....that list aint taht long...but quiet so....neway....nd definitely blogrolll....im so damn addicted to this now....its a great stress release i find....lol.....pretty stressed im mostly......neway...should get back to my readings.....have loads to do....but damn..my FEET still hurt reallly bad!!!Booo Hoooo....signing offf....wishing all a great year ahead....MMMMMMUUUUUAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH....!!!!!

1 comment:

maverick said...

i am sure u new yr resolution shud b not to dance in stilettoe's in party's...or if u do..hold them in ur hand n dance...lol... :)

ardent poignant soul....

lost in nostalgia...