lost in .............

its reallly late night...nearly 2am now.....im not sleepy.....just a million thngs going through my mind.....getting that same restless feeling.....this is the mid sem break week.....so dont have classes this week...last weekend was fun....friday was a tad bit disaappointing...coz i had to completely ignore someone.....but saturday was great ;)......i hope thrs more of them.... neway.....i have a lot on mind as usual....its been kindof wierd with a friend lately....i hope thngs change for us.....its been raining a lot these days....making things worse is the horrible cold weather:(.....oh welll.....im eager about nov...something to look forward to....I was talking to P today abt crazy stufff.....i dnt even have nething to say....ill leave it here.....

poila boisakh...

yipeee...today is the first day of the new year(well bong new year)....had i been in india..would have meant lots of new clothes...and people buzzing around the house...but sob sob...im sitting alone working on something:(....subho noboborsho to all in the blog world... ;)i have made few resolutions ( bad ones) nd im gonna try stick to em...

....winter sets in..

its winter again...that time of year that i absolutely detest...im pretty lazy as it is...and this rainy winter...makes me wanna curl up in my warm blanket tucked in with my Big Green cushion like a millipede...as a kid i used to be kindof fascinated by milipedes...how they curl up at the slightest touch of the stick i used to try and poke em with... ;) all else i mean life is goin on somehow....studies goin ok....im concerned about a million things rite at this moment...and i wish i could be someplace else rite at this moment....spent time with someone...i didnt use to like taht much...not tht i do now..but was happy to see that persons making an effort to change for the better....got to know certain things about someone i kindof liked for a while...nd was unhappy to learn that something that was meant to be between us has reached someone it should'nt have...!! I can't understand what the issue is with keeping certain things to oneself....i mean....can't people respect a request..!?! this is the N-th time i have been through something like this....i ask someone something...or tell someone something...nd tell them explicitly not to go discuss it...nd next thing i knw..(the world being a small place) i hear it from someone else ...bloody annoying....

i have my presentation this week...nd then goin out next friday....got dragged into it....tryin to set someone up...but its gone all wrong now..nd im stuck with this someone...DAMN...!!been dreaming abt india for a while now..tried booking tickets today...they are so bloody expensive:(...have to be an abslute miser to be able to save up enough for my plans enroute too....to make things worse....things havent been goin rite with few other "friends"...i have tried setting things right...without success..i mean...u can try only so much...i have given up...after quiet a few trials at setting things rite.... way too much goin on in liferite now...

but theres isnt much to ;look forward too..which is pretty sad....but im dealing with it somehow...it makes me cranky though...
i think i have complained enough...gotta work on something now....

whats goin on??!!

i dont understand what the hell is on with people around me....some behave like asses for no reason whatsoever.....some want too much attention....nd when not given enough of it....they go psycho...nd start ignoring you....i have loads to work on at the moment....with presentations and essays lined up one after the other....not that im complaining....this keeps me busy nd mind of other not so important affairs....been feeling a little sick lately...some of it is the bloody weather and some of it these other things that are causing disturbances in my system...

so many of my so called acquaintances have been trying to hook me up with people....someone i know brings up a new guy everytime i meet her....sick of people asking me the same damn questions all the time...not like marriage is the end of all worries....in life...if it were so i wld be so willing to go ahead...but neway....rite now im a bit brain dead...after staring at my laptop for some 5 odd hours....did manage to get a significant bit of work done....

I tagged along with P to her nieces birthday party yesterday...and was overjoyed to see so many adorable little kids...the ages varied from 2 months to 10 years...i was playing with two 8 and 9 month old kids...respectively....one of the moms was all too ready nd glad for me to take the kid away from her....poor thing was so tired from changing diapers and nursing it all the time....havnt interacted with kids that young in a while...they make me so happy...love em...little bundles of JOY....

seems like my dinners done...nd my tummies making signals to fill it up...signing off...