moving on...

heres the link to my new blog...im moving...u heard me ....;)

http://bewitchedlass.blogspot.com/

unsaid words...

its so true...that sometimes silence speaks more than words do....I never used to understand how...but i have begun to realise all these different things now... equally true is this...sometimes unsaid things can seem harsher than the harshest words spat out by someone....

after all people learn from experiences...such is what life...that over the years when one grows old...one picks up thorns and petals along the way and thus get moulded...our life is always teaching or telling us things...but we do not begin to hear it till we have almost lived a third of our life...an average human being lives upto the age of mid 70...so I would say we are almost in our early 20's before we start realising things...

One can't be blamed for this though...I mean who would bother to think about serious things like future career and what life holds for us..and the likes of where would he/she end up working or marrying when there are more important things like making fun of the loosers around...and mimicing teachers and buking class..and whispering in groups about one's latest crush...this is what took up most of our time in high school...

indian parents as everyone knows...nevertheless try and talk sense into kids...so did my parents....."don't waste time"..."have you done your homework?".."look at how neat and pretty your friend's handwriting is! why are you so messy?" and the likes of it...and trust me it used to drive me nuts..all this comaprison..and being told I am not doing well enough...I never turned out to be the nerdy type who would make sure everythign is done and worked out in time...I have been a procrastinator all my life...which is something I still try to fight...I have always crammed a week before exams..and touchwood...haven't done bad either...

anyway...I happened to talk to M a while back and our conversation was rather impersonal conversation....while it go time thinking...I am glad it was the way it was....this particular person used to be one of my best buds at a point of time....so close were we...it was like...if one was seen without the other people would ask Y...and we could read each others minds...but like always....it was short lived....turned out it was an act....it was so ackward....when i went home last year...meeting up and pretending like things were as perfect as always...when I could and im sure M could too feel what was going on at the back of my mind...I wasn't surprised to notice a while back...snaps of M and a nother person...posing....and this was the very person who was a subject of hatred even half a year back...who cares...I told myself....whats done is done..and can't do nething about it...

there was this other person R who again I used to be inseperable with sometime in high school....and now we don't talk anymore...strange aye....how you can be sooo close to a person at some time and the next moment he/she could be the last person on earth you would want to bump into....when I picture our times together...it does bring a faint smile on my face...just remembering all the mischeives we had been upto...used to be teacher's pet inspite of all...we didn't get in touch when I was in india last year...

I had spent a significant bit of time trying to be someone I wasn't deep down....constantly striving to be somebody you are not can be hard....I stopped once i realised that it doesn't really make a difference....people will come to you if they like you for who you are...irrespective of whether you are/ are not the best friend they can have...don't feel the need to please people and keep then happy so they don't leave you alone...that woudn't really count for true liking would it...coz those who like you would take you for who you are...good or bad...

anyway...rather have a few really good friends you can depend on than a million of which most would disaapear at the slightest touch of complication...Im happy now....Masks don't stay for too long....Face is the reflection of the characteristics a being-its so true!

random doodling....

I'm back yet again...a friday night....the good weekend mood kicking in...:)my day was quite good...went to work in the morning...and got bored there as usual...at least my language skills improving....one good thing!! Was dying of hunger because i had skipped breakfast not knowingly ...but I somehow just forgot to eat before I left home....!!!had a filing tandoori chicken sandwich...with loads of lettuce and capsicum and tomatoes and mushrooms in it....but paid $7.50 for it...so not worth 7.50!!!

its as cold as ever still in my world its like in the narnia series..100 years of winter kindof concept...its so friggin cold....I'm unable to handle it:(....I'm lazy to begin with and weather is doing nothing to help...rather making things worse....anyway...during one of my breaks was goin through this article in in todays SMH...
Coping with cold is child's play for some, agony for others....
WHY does winter affect people differently? Why can some people happily survive in shorts while others freeze in coats?..thats how it starts offf.....people who are obese or FAT and muscle-y people have a natural INSULATION..but what about peoplelike us :(...apparently our brain can be tricked into thinking the body is overheating if we eat spicy/hot food which triggers some temperature receptor inpulses...and the brain then thinks its actually not that cold...but i don't even eat that much hot food...:(

anyway...I have had a growing interest in puzzles...sudoku and word jumbles and crosswords since a while...not to forget my all time addiction to the dictionary game...today was one of "being impulsive" days....felt an intense desire to solve some of that...and so I left work at 5pm...went straight to a book store and bought myself sudoku book, a new york times crossword collection flipbook...and the highlight of my buy is a masterpiece by my "favi-avourite" author...crime and punishment by fyodor dostoevsky....what a great buy it is only $12...yooohoooo!!!!

while at the book store I also happened to come across the actual book...The 48 Laws of Power is a 1998 book by Robert Greene....i made a reference to one of the laws in a previous post...anyway....another of my current interests these days is playing chess...and this game of marbles..that i used to play as a kid...I had gone to the mountain last december...and happened to find it at an woodart store...the board is made of nice laquered dark wood and the set of marbles i have is green with swirling cloudy patterns inside them....

I tend to digress from what i say too often...neway...I love losing myself in book stores...its like im teleported to another world where its only me and the millions of books neatly arranged on shelves around me...and while walking around leafing through pages of random books...up and down a million aisles...happen to glide past other silent book lovers.....I always have wished...If I am rich someday..I want to have a big room in my dwelling, just as a library...the four walls would be made of expensive lacquered dark wood shelves...and will be home to all the books that I buy...and whenever I am tired and need to take some rest...I'll just slip into that room...and lose myselt in this fantasy world....and forget all my worries for a while...and be blissfully happy...

each time i enter a book store I get this overwhelming urge to buy all the books i lay my eyes on...books are so expensive these days..ever more so here than back home....its like I can never stop comparing prices and my old habbit of converting into home currency and telling myself what a RIppoFF!!!boy oH! boy!!!

I spent quiet a bit of time reading reviews about the dark knight and so far they have added to my excitement...I'm going to watch it tomorrow night...It seems like this flick will be the moivie of this year...ledgers best ever performance some say...now I have stuff to do...so we part here....ta da...

rise and shine....;)

this is a random middle of the week post....its a thursday afternoon..may i specify a sunny bright yet chilly thursday afternoon..the 17th of july....the dark knight releases today....the much awaited flick.....ledgers last film....

I have been trying to convinse people to come watch the film with me....been quiet atask....i can't believe hardly anyone wants to go...:(...anyway did manage to find few folks who agreed...so the day to watch it is this saturday...im excited...neway had i not found anyone i would probably have gone and seen it by myself....have done this earlier ....another guy just confirmed he'll come...:)

anyway.....i have been a bit tight in budget and finances..so i have been keeping a watch on what i was buying...and im also trying to eat in rather than eat out...im kindof sick of eating restaurant or junk food....and moreover i absolutely love cooking....im gonna go cook in a while...but somehow my woolworths bills always seem to be never less than $25....food items are expensive...with world food and oil inflation on the rise...and rents increasing tooo....it seems like there is no way one could ever have enough savings....bloody taxes are a killer tooo...

lodged my tax return online and i know im gonna get back a small fraction of what got deducted....its bloody hard to survive without a fulltime job:(....sick of being poor....i like it when i dont have to calculate and recalculate before spending money on a gorgeous dress....

Infect this world....

yet another late nite post...happened to have a conversation with a friend...one of those touchy ones...abt people using people...and just bothering to keep touch when in need...actually more for personal selfish reasons...
and the likes of it...

neway that struck a familiar chord....one of those been there....seen it moments....just happened to remember this forward mail a friend had sent me...its called "the 48 laws of power"...one of them says

Never put too Much Trust in Friends, Learn how to use Enemies

Be wary of friends-they will betray you more quickly, for they are easily aroused to envy. They also become spoiled and tyrannical. But hire a former enemy and he will be more loyal than a friend, because he has more to prove. In fact, you have more to fear from friends than from enemies. If you have no enemies, find a way to make them.

I have learnt it the hard way tooo....It hurts as hell to start with when u feel betrayed....and the very person u thought was ur closest person...does a 180 degree and comes out of the camouflage that you thought was reality....first comes intense anger...and then with realisation comes pain...a lot of pain....and then with time comes acceptance and you learn to move on...thts what people around always keep saying neway....just move on....life will pick up pace soon....

and if one happens to be like me...bit too emotional...it takes more time to get over people...and if its matters of the heart...somewhere at the back of the mind always i think....neway....

like i was saying...most people you meet are just the pretentious type who would just love to share the limelight with you...and try to slip away unnoticed at the first signs of un happiness...weell when i say that i don't mean...stick thru a horrible crisis come what may and sulk and mourn even if u can't do anythign to change things...but...just letting one know that if needed you can be a shoulder to cry on makes a lot of difference....trust me!!!.....those few words are so powerful....as to make a difference to the persons state of mind...

at least you tried to make them smile...and boy the joy u'll feel if u can make a difference in someones life...is not comparable to anything...well not quiet but its a good feeling...

and to keep away from misery....best thing to do is to connect less with people...very very hard to achieve for some...but if attained...u can be happy...

after all every day we live we try to wake up with a smile on our face...and make sure you don't forget to pass it on to as many people as possible...a smile can be one of the most contagious things on the face of this planet...so infect as many people as u can...thats what I have in mind ....smiling doesn't hurt or cost you anything...on the other hand it might make someone else...day a little better if not a lot...so be a happy puppy and infect this world with your smile....

sleepless in.....

yet another time...im wide awake in the wee hours of a sunday morning...nearly 2am...not too tired and hence not sleepy..i think...neway...the day was good...actually won't be doing justice if i said good...it was great....

i have gotten back into reading dostoevsky again....im in love with him....his descriptions are somewhat wierd and have something about em....i also have added another city to my travel list...st. petersberg....aka leningrad in the past...i'm currently reading notes from the underground...wierdest thing i have read till date....its a must read if not for anything else, the abrupt monologues that go on for ever....

caught up with my uni friends and it was a nice quiet evening...watched the new will smith flick....cld have ben better...he looked hot as always...;) Im eagerly waiting for the dark knight...i have a subtle crush on someone again...but not worth nething...so have to forget about it...have to stop procrastinating and get back onto the research thingie as of tomorrow.... been working quiet a bit lately...and its almost like i'm getting paid to learn my mother tongue and getting to know it better...not bad...made me realise how rich and beautiful the language is...i'm also going through one of my phases currently...these days it is...feel proud about my roots moments...mostly..actually all the time...kindof becoming absessed to an extent abt stuff in general...

the trip next week up north isn't happening....im eagerly awaiting the time when i can fly home....and relax and unwind...and do all that i have in mind...oh god hope it all happens as i have pictured it..

i had a bizarre dream last morning...it had my circle of friends mixed up...people from back home for some odd reason knew my friends out here...and the things i saw were pretty wierd tooo...made no sense whatsoever...was a bit surprised to realise i dreamt about a certain things related to a certain person...who i didn't think wld mean much to me....i mean....not to the extent those images exhibited....neway....something more to muse about aye...

there have been certain things that were a constant burden on my mind...since the time i moved base....important things went wrong....but I'm so so so happy things are working out and the gaps closing again....and i hope this time its not a make bilief thing...its for real and hopefully here to stay and become better if not stay the same......;)

i just had a pack of mei goreng..which im in love with...its the tastiest noodle on earth....i could probably live on mei goreng for a week and not complain...and now planning to watch a movie...so ill get back to that...

rewinding...

boy has it been a busy few weeks...finished exams a week back and have been busy since...juggling work..studies...socialising and all that jazz...neway i'm loving every moment of it...have been watching lottt of flicks....

apart from that have to get back to research from tomorrow...im running short on money too...not a good time...but im managing somehow....
today was like neother day...i have been getting sleepless nights again...insomnias starting to happen again...and no particular reason there to blame it on....neway...been promising myself i would leave home at 7:30 every morning...but failed to get up before 8:45am every single day since exams....and hence after a lot of rushing...and shoving food down my throat i manage to reach work at 10:11am precisely every single day...

tend to fall asleeep on the train...im just really burnt out and tired all the time for no apparent reason...and yet insomnia inspite of the tiredness...evryone keeps telling me i dont get tired enough..or i wld drift off to dreamland the second i hit my pillow...looks like im gonna have to do something about this....

have been playing cat and mouse games to dodge certain people these days...did an excellent job in avoiding bumping into the last person i went out with...just saved myself some bloody ackward moments-of-no-escape...boy!!neway....a lot of people said i looked really pretty today...thts the highlight of my day...lame kindof...but im a narcissist to an extent...so ill end it there...for now....

random....**$@.....shreds...

I finish my exams tomorrow....been waiting for this impatiently...being pretty much cut off from the rest of the world....isn't all that pleasant...gets on my nerves at times....and to release tension I lose myself in the virtual world of movies...and my fantasies....

I tend to get very very uncomfortable...when I am by myself after sun set...Cannot begin to imagine this horrible feeling of sheer loneliness that begins to creep in....Although I know nothing could go wrong...I mean sucurity is good here...but something doesn't feel alright if its just me ....and it freaks me out....

Im reallly really excited about goin home in some months time...Plan to be super stingy to save up money for my plans....but my fiends are starting to complain already when I mention this...not much going out all that often....Over the past few nights I have been dreaming about my childhood nest...the garden....I used to run off to and hide from my mum..when she was trying to get me to do a sheet of maths problems...or trying to shove boring chicken stew down my oesophagus....I still hate chiken stew...

Every time mom tried to feed me something nutritious I would consider her my biggest enemy and plot ways to escape from her clutches...I used to be one Naughty kid....mommy would get complains every now and again from school...about me beating up a guy..or bullying someone...at lunchtime....and one line that never failed to appear on my report card was "she is very talkative in class"....that was something all teachers would consistently winge about....but over the years no one has been able to do anything to change it....

Those good old days...makes my eyes moist when I remember them...gone never to return...I had been wanting to go back to the house I spent the initial 12 years of my childhood in....for a long time...but have been caught up with a lot of things...and have thus been procrastinating....but I am goin to take a walk down memory lane this time when I go home.....my dreams have lately been a montage of the itsy bitsy slices of those 12 years...

It feels wierd knowing when I go home this time..not all the familiar faces I am used to seeing would be around...I hate being all grown up....and seeing that sense of security and bonding I felt would last for ever between me and my friends...gradually disappear....not that its always the case that things aren't working out for us ...but more that life takes us in different directions...and I would never have thought five years back that I would be far far away from home on one bright winter afternoon typing up this blog...and being all nostalgic...

I still remember the times when I used to play dressups with my cousins....lock ourselves in a room and pull out all the pretty sarees and dresses and try them on...and pose in front of the mirror....it was so much fun...I happened to mention this to my roommate the other day...and told her about how no one wants to play dressups with me anymore coz they thnk I'm being childish...and she came up to me last nite and said she would play with me after i finish my exams...YOOHOOO....

the things people give up to be grown up...makes me sad...

life or the so called life

sometimes it makes me wonder...what is the purpose of living the life im living...I mean living life like a nobody....is not something appealing...yeah sure when you are born you parents, other family members and neighbours perhaps rejoice at the miracle of birth yet again...a new life being among them... but that sure is short lived...over the span of "life" on the face of this earth...we also tend to make friends (some very close ones one could treasure for life) and some not that close... & acquaintances of our own....and then if you travell across the barrier of this life and into the next one..the one called afterlife....again sure a few people would miss you...but that is all...

I cannot remember when I lost my desire to strive for a few things I thought were really important to me....and I can't remember when a few people I thought would be there with me for life...left my side even before I had begun to understand the complexities of life...and it hurt a lot...suddenly finding myself alone..without the familiar faces around....but I guess this is life...and you learn to live it as it comes and move on....Moving on is probably one of the most commonly used phrases...one can come across....evryone is advising evryone to move on with life all the time...its easier said than done...

especially if you tend to be one who cries bucketfulls when watching melodramatic films and get dewy eyed at the merest mention of loved ones....Its kindof embarassing I tell you...

I am very happy today due to a variety of diferent reasons...but somewhere at the back of my mind...I feel a tad melancholy...I dreamt about things I thought I had gotten totally over and thought that I had managed to get out of my system...it seemed pretty surreal too...but was a stupid dream after all....but not everyone gets the thing they wish for....wishful thinking is fun but is limited to being a figment of our imagination.....mostly....

Oh I wish I could get so many different things....and be with some people....I would like to be with....wishful thinking...but i so so wish...for things to change...

strangeness....

Have my exams goin on now...one down two more to go...they are pretty spread out...and hence finish late..screwed up and made a stupid mistake in the first one...suddenly coudn't remember the log likelihood function of a duration model that follows exponential distribution..:( but im pleased with my johansens cointegration and vector error correction model answers...poured my heart out....

..and I got a fantastic Job offer tooo....I'm so soooooo happy...start early next year....the pays pretty good too...so its all good...

I'm also looking for ways to subtly breaking off with someone....there seems to be no spark and I'm incredibly bored tooo....man this one is gonna be pretty hard...missed a frnch film last weekend:(....but plan to go see the counterfeiters sometime soon. heard its really good..and besides its an interesting plot based on real facts...

I also learned that i get to spend more time in india now than i had thought i would be able to earlier...P is coming back this saturday....will be lonely no more!!!

trying to deal with Taylor's rule rite now...so I'll get back to that....

review...

watched yet another french film...anthony zimmer....backdrop is france obviously....watching it ...i found myself lost in another world...some effect...good flick...recent too...a 2005 release...to me it seems....thrs something magical abt the country itself...when ever i tell my friends about the french connection (oh well my obssession with france!!) everyone tells me french people are rather rude and biggest snobs among EU...and its just in films that france is portrayed as i see it...which im in love with...and reality is different from the virtual world....i know its true...but the child inside me tells me never to let go my imaginations...and live just in reality....
If I were given a choise to live anywhere on tis globe it would definitely be paris....i can't remember what triggered my obssession with france...but its been there for a decent while...and seems to be growing intense with passage of time....I have always been a dreamer....My dreams are rather bizarre too..i must say...i wake up most mornings thinking...wow that was cool...i wish it were for real...at one point of time used to be sci-fi dreams...not had much of those in recent past...neway...getiing back to what i was saying...One of my resolutions this year was to at least start attending classes to learn French...hoping itll happen....
have so much to do this year....hope they all...or at least most of them happen...times flying tooo....so hopefully NOvember will be knocking on my door sooon...enough... ;)

SlIcE it up...

xams start in less than a fortnights time...and i still have an assignment to submit...im mostly at home these days..no more classes for this semester...its just brushing up and studying...with P gone and S never at home...tend to get lonely a lot...so when ever im not studying i either listen to music...or think abt things(my usual habbit of thinking too much) or i have been watching lot of friends and movies whenever im taking a break...

just watched this french (there goes my obssession!!)film called monique...genre says romantic comedy....wierd...about this couple who break up..the wife was cheating on the husband...and she moves out of home with "the other 1" and meanwhile the guy (alex) orders this silicon life size doll with the perfect figure every guy would kill for....and being all by himself he renovates a massive part of the house and makes it all pink...drapes..to sheets...to toilet seat cover to car...and so obssessed is he...he goes and buys lingerie (really nice expensive ones two....i loved most of them!) for the doll...so hes spending days "playing"with Monique..untill his friends comes by and finds out and then word reaches his other acquaintances and wife...and she gets mad at him..jealous of a moulded doll with huge tits...!!! was a funny flick....ends well...

that was my break...its almost 1am...and im as fresh as an owl...shld hopefully be able to stay up the nite...and work on some stuff....planning on finishing a lot of stuff this weekend....I also watched Ironman last tuesday...reminded me how HOT Robert downey Jr. is....i have a thing for older men...evryone thinks its wierd...but neway....its a must watch...a fab flick....would love to watch it again....
and i saw nine months which made me realise Hugh grants a spunk too...theres so many good looking fellas...around....i wish i cld have my pick....oh well not tht im complaining with my current options...:) im happy....so that is a teeny tiny slice of my life...as of now......

a bit of this and a tad of that...

havnt blogged in eons....well just not much to write or being too preoccupied or lazy...mostly....semesters about to end....and it seems i have stopped complaining about life...started to accept it the way it is...taking things as it comes...and with practise fighting emotions is getting a lot easier tooo....well not doing a great job..but its woking somehow...

don't know where time slips through....before i knew half the year is gone almost...I wish time went faster...eagerly waiting for year end....the someone....after all seems to be interested in me ...a lot...well knowing common friends finally pays off...sweet...neway...ihave een trying to be selfish, mean, a pain in the ass for a while..and glad to say ihave suceeded in what i endeavoured to be...its a wierd pleasure that i derive being a biatch with biatches....

havent been in touch with friends for a long long time....everyones so damn busy with their own thing....hardly get time to exchange hi-s and hello-s...kinda sad....coz nothing feels as good as a healthy, hearty conversation...aka "bangalir adda" with old buddies....one of the many stress busters....miss my roomie...thr nutcase is in india these days....have the bloody exams in some time....can't wait for it to finish asap....and then move on and actually work on my research...which is far more interesting that few dumb units i have to do....

uuummmmm aaaaaaahhhhh.....crap...its late...off for now.....

Crazy.....

times been flying...the past few weeks have been so busy....when i look back and thnk of it.....neway...things have been going goood....a lot of things have been happening....with semester nearing the end assignments and presentations and research needs to be done....ive been so busy...its late nite when i realise the day went by...nd tht too so quick....

havnt got time for nething these days...my wardrobes increasing in size by the day....being a shopaholic...i try and avoid shops altogether....coz i succumb to temptations too easily....blew up more than half a grand the other day...neway....its finally stopped raining....but its really cold...oh its winter afterall...eagerly awaiting for november to be here.....have a lot of things planned up.....oh! i can hardly wait....its gonna be so much fun...INDIA again....yippeee!!!

over the past couple of days had been getiing a wierd back of mind feeling something (i thnk good) is about to happen....ive tried making sense....of all these flashin images in my head...and the feeling i wake up with each morning....but i donno..makes no sense to me..a couple identities....recurring dreams...and my one off sleep babbling....i hope it all means something....

thngs are back to normal....kindofff...with few people who had been acting all wierd....talking out things definitely helps....but few others are going crazy now...god this viscious circle...hope my acquaintances/friends get back their sanity soon....

lost in .............

its reallly late night...nearly 2am now.....im not sleepy.....just a million thngs going through my mind.....getting that same restless feeling.....this is the mid sem break week.....so dont have classes this week...last weekend was fun....friday was a tad bit disaappointing...coz i had to completely ignore someone.....but saturday was great ;)......i hope thrs more of them.... neway.....i have a lot on mind as usual....its been kindof wierd with a friend lately....i hope thngs change for us.....its been raining a lot these days....making things worse is the horrible cold weather:(.....oh welll.....im eager about nov...something to look forward to....I was talking to P today abt crazy stufff.....i dnt even have nething to say....ill leave it here.....

poila boisakh...

yipeee...today is the first day of the new year(well bong new year)....had i been in india..would have meant lots of new clothes...and people buzzing around the house...but sob sob...im sitting alone working on something:(....subho noboborsho to all in the blog world... ;)i have made few resolutions ( bad ones) nd im gonna try stick to em...

....winter sets in..

its winter again...that time of year that i absolutely detest...im pretty lazy as it is...and this rainy winter...makes me wanna curl up in my warm blanket tucked in with my Big Green cushion like a millipede...as a kid i used to be kindof fascinated by milipedes...how they curl up at the slightest touch of the stick i used to try and poke em with... ;) all else i mean life is goin on somehow....studies goin ok....im concerned about a million things rite at this moment...and i wish i could be someplace else rite at this moment....spent time with someone...i didnt use to like taht much...not tht i do now..but was happy to see that persons making an effort to change for the better....got to know certain things about someone i kindof liked for a while...nd was unhappy to learn that something that was meant to be between us has reached someone it should'nt have...!! I can't understand what the issue is with keeping certain things to oneself....i mean....can't people respect a request..!?! this is the N-th time i have been through something like this....i ask someone something...or tell someone something...nd tell them explicitly not to go discuss it...nd next thing i knw..(the world being a small place) i hear it from someone else ...bloody annoying....

i have my presentation this week...nd then goin out next friday....got dragged into it....tryin to set someone up...but its gone all wrong now..nd im stuck with this someone...DAMN...!!been dreaming abt india for a while now..tried booking tickets today...they are so bloody expensive:(...have to be an abslute miser to be able to save up enough for my plans enroute too....to make things worse....things havent been goin rite with few other "friends"...i have tried setting things right...without success..i mean...u can try only so much...i have given up...after quiet a few trials at setting things rite.... way too much goin on in liferite now...

but theres isnt much to ;look forward too..which is pretty sad....but im dealing with it somehow...it makes me cranky though...
i think i have complained enough...gotta work on something now....

whats goin on??!!

i dont understand what the hell is on with people around me....some behave like asses for no reason whatsoever.....some want too much attention....nd when not given enough of it....they go psycho...nd start ignoring you....i have loads to work on at the moment....with presentations and essays lined up one after the other....not that im complaining....this keeps me busy nd mind of other not so important affairs....been feeling a little sick lately...some of it is the bloody weather and some of it these other things that are causing disturbances in my system...

so many of my so called acquaintances have been trying to hook me up with people....someone i know brings up a new guy everytime i meet her....sick of people asking me the same damn questions all the time...not like marriage is the end of all worries....in life...if it were so i wld be so willing to go ahead...but neway....rite now im a bit brain dead...after staring at my laptop for some 5 odd hours....did manage to get a significant bit of work done....

I tagged along with P to her nieces birthday party yesterday...and was overjoyed to see so many adorable little kids...the ages varied from 2 months to 10 years...i was playing with two 8 and 9 month old kids...respectively....one of the moms was all too ready nd glad for me to take the kid away from her....poor thing was so tired from changing diapers and nursing it all the time....havnt interacted with kids that young in a while...they make me so happy...love em...little bundles of JOY....

seems like my dinners done...nd my tummies making signals to fill it up...signing off...

mad eye moody!!

im back.....its been a crazy few weeks....so much is goin on...that even before i realised the month is gone....times flying.....its been very hectic.....i havent been able to blog or read blogs for a long time....havent had the opportunity to organise my thoughts to sit down and write em out....neway...not tht i have much to write now...actually i do..i mean i can...just that its a wierd feeling coudn't be bothered making sense of whats going on in my head and writing it out.....the thoughts flow..but i keep em to myself...im actually pretty cranky now...actually the past few days i have been so....theres more than one reasons behind it..of which few are within my control...few arent...but i have done nothing to regulate the ones in my control....damn....i donno what am i even writing....oh i miss someone so bad....i wish i could talk to tht someone who i misss... sigh sigh...if only i could do and get what i wanted...

TiMe OuT...

been really busy for quiet a while....last weekend especially....witnessed Indian Cricket team leave SCG with wide grins on their faces...that was a memorable day....i had so much fun....initially my seat was in a bay where there were mostly ozzies on al sides...so i moved to the bay that seated cheering screaming people clad in the light blue jersey....nd there was so much energy in the crowd....

ir was a bright sunny day...few clouds floating around in the depths of the blue firmament...nd i got nicely roasted tanned in the sun...(damn!!)

the previous day was mardi gras...and i had gone to the city to get a sneek peek of what its all about...there were tons and tons of gay/lesbians parading hand in hand....there was a bit of flashing of bare breasts...and fat actually obese men walking around in g-strings ( looked so ridiculous)but yeah....in the pic below...its men btw...actually transvestites....in nun outfits...